Good Morning♥

This few days, i can't really sleep well. I'll take a long time, to totally be in my dream. My eyes are closed but my mind is still running. Thought everything is going on smoothly for me.Now everything, is going to the wrong way. Had been quarreling with him almost every single day! I can't tolerate! I just feel like leaving him and go to my own way. I tried to be strong but i can't! I'm trying my very best to just forget about him. But failed! ): Not only relationship that makes me go crazy, i've got some other things too. As i can't say it out here. How i wish, i'm a lesbian or maybe a butch. I can actually change myself to be one. For he and my family sake, i dont want to. Or maybe a single lady for the rest of my life. So i will not be stress out with alot of things. No matter what, i still have to live and build myself up. From that day till now, i still never talk to my dad. I dont feel like to, i see him i just feel so irritated! I'm broke! Totally broke. :( I need a job badly! I also want to change my iphone to blackberry! Tomorrow, i might be meeting him because i gonna reborn my hair and my friends gonna come and pick me up. I tell myself, i know i can do it. I know i can be strong. Its 4.45 am and i'm still not asleep! Relationship troubles me alot. Im still young to have a boyfriend. (: But he still treat me good and love me alot. When i wanna leave him. He'll just reject my question! Gonna be 1 year 5 months, this coming Saturday. My longest boyfriend(: